Sunday, June 18, 2006
tell me how selfish i am
someone please repeat the truth right into my face that im the most SELFISH , inconsiderate, so self-seeking bitch ever. YES I AM. im so feeling conscience-stricken and sinful about myself now. this guilt will always follow me now and then. guess i will be feeing awful about it until perhaps another shit comes. never mind, im sure enough its just gonna take me a few days to get over this shitty shit.
its been like an epoch since i last failed to lullaby myself to sleep. yesterday night, there wasnt any signal that my eyes needed any snooze time out. i didnt sleep the entire night. i loved the song pen sent me. everytime when i miss him, the song plays on as though expected through the radio box. it happened again this morning. uncanny coincidence. those messages in my inbox, i dare not open to read them again. for the will-o'-the-wisp was convincingly happening, i wont take more chances to let things remain as they were.
if our bet doesnt come true, this might be one of my greatest regret
a splendid trip spent in beach at sentosa with munyee (my ally). the sun was great. though not so scorching yet i still managed for a tan. i left ally alone (she doesnt mind) while i went to soak myself in the water. i told her that i was mending a slightly broken heart. lmao. anyway, thanks ally for everything. the next trip to beach- MY TREAT!
a lil regrets now but i choose to press on
idontmissyou
left to seek for more fun