Thursday, April 05, 2007
took a photo with curly wurly.
HEHEHE IM SO HAPPY.
i was happy yesterday
was randomly reading friends blogs then somehow ended up reading my vb juniors' blog.they've been through a lot, i guess. haha
missed volleyball trainings.
reading on brings back memories
wasnt a good team player
not in secondary school
neither in innova
actually i felt used.
the fact that i was on bench.
it wasnt easy. srsly.
i hid my pride and whatever lil ego thats left in me,
sometimes
when you get un-noticed.
when your efforts werent recognised.
when you were trying so hard yet you failed.
when you tried to hide away all your emotions
when your team mates tried to cheer you on
when they expressed as of how much you meant to the team
when you just felt like quitting the game
when you were pretending how undefeated you are in spite of the coach's sarcastic remarks to you
when you were nobody.
when you couldnt tell anyone else about it
when you feel so out and odd and away from the team
when you basically got ignored
when you were srsly dead desperate for just any chances.. to determine your coach wrong
when you fought so much for yourself and got nothing
when you werent given the chance at all.
when you freaked yourself into thinking that 'hey, c'mon this game isnt for me'
when you pretend that we are a team
when you hestitated whether to think as a team or for yourself
when you know that your presence doesnt count
emo already
nonetheless,
was glad for the opportunities
doesnt really matter even if i lose face in the court
used to think volleyball is my life.
will continue to pursue my passion for volleyball.period
HEEEEEHEEEE.
curly wurly
(:
left to seek for more fun